Thursday, May 24, 2012
Crazy days.....Lord get me through
Two weeks ago ended a relationship with a man that was clearly not for me from the start. He said all of the right things but, the really important stuff...there was no time. He proclaimed he was a "Nice" guy that he really wasn't as bad as it all seemed....guess what nice guy, if you cant pick up the phone to say Hello...you're too busy for me. I stayed in this non relationship too long...hoping he would change his behavior. Why do we get so drawn up in the I don't want to be alone we allow ourselves to settle. Guess what...I was alone...all alone in this so called relationship...It was no different than any other relationship. I shouldn't have to say ....."don't you want to see me"..God, it was like I was a child, begging for just an ounce of his attention. Why did I do that to myself. Why am I constantly trying to get that one person to be all that I need. Its getting very old. Love shouldn't be that hard. We all want unconditional love....does that exist outside of God. I don't think so. So, I'm on a journey so to speak. One that hopefully transcends me into a stronger, mentally healthy and happy person. No Men for a year. This is not to say I wont talk to them or go to dinner with them. But the construct of a relationship with no relationship is getting old. I need fresh air. I need God and whats great about that is...God is there...
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